Day 14: Relationship to food

I have a love-hate relationship to food.  I have always been a picky eater.  And for years, I have struggled with my weight.  Ironic, isn’t it?

I love food.  I love to eat.  But there are certain foods that I don’t like.  I like burgers, but to a certain extent.  Beef gives me digestive problems.  I don’t think I overeat.

But, and it’s a very big “but”, I don’t exercise.  I always sitting.  I don’t workout.  I don’t walk or refuse to walk long distances.  I enjoy occasional pork but given a preference, I can skip that. I don’t drink plenty of fluids.  I don’t eat that much fruits and veggies.  I am also not adventurous and I don’t like anything exotic.

I love, love, love, love chocolates.  Any chocolate-flavored desserts, I’d eat.  If all the foods are chocolate-dipped, I’d eat it.  It’s just a theory and I haven’t tried. 

So maybe if I added one fruit a day in my meals or substitute chocolate-flavored yogurt (are there any?) instead of chocolate ice cream, I’d be eating healthier.  Maybe if cook my own meals and eat mostly fish and chicken (white meats), would that reduce my fats?

I’d probably lose more if walk around the compound for at least 15 minutes or do those twistee exercises while watching TV, I’d be a bit skinnier.

You see, I already know the answer to all these.  Yet, I refuse to do it.  I read somewhere that in order to create a habit, you have to do it everyday for 21 days.  James Clear even explained it clearer (no pun intended), that you don’t need to do extremes to achieve your goals.

Like for exercise, there’s no excuse for anyone NOT to exercise.  If you only have five minutes, then walk or exercise for 5 minutes for 21 days.

So for food.  Watch out.  I’ll eat more of you. :P

Day 13: Someone I've always wanted to meet

I’m not really fond of showbiz.  I love movies, I love watching them.  Love listening to music and songs.  But as for the artists, I only criticize their work, not their life.  And although, they live a very public life, they are still entitled to a little bit of privacy.

As for politics, I’ve always thought that politics is a dirty game.  In everything, once politics comes in, it becomes chaotic.  Politics and politicians should put order, not chaos.

Who do I want to meet then?  None.  If in the course of the journey here, I happened to meet a celebrity, good for me.  I’m not overly ecstatic about it.  I would tell them I’m their fan.  But I won’t impose.

I used to think I want to meet Oprah or Ellen Degeneres, but somehow, it’s more like, if I meet them great, if not it’s great too.  It feels wishful thinking, but you’ll never know.  I’m keeping and open-mind.

I’m not Catholic, so I’m not keen on seeing the Pope, though I don’t mind meeting him.

I don’t really have this over fascination with celebrities, politicians, or religious leaders.  I like what they do, and I admire their achievements.  I guess I don’t have a hero in mind.  I like that you want to work to change the world.  I’m inspired by a lot of people.  And I like the idea of helping and volunteering.  So maybe that’s what I’m keen to meet – people who’ll give me opportunities to help and volunteer.

But for now, I’m happily content in watching them from afar - in this case, in the comforts of our home, on TV.

Day 12: Someone I miss

I miss being in relationship, does that count?   

-  I miss the warmth.  

-  I miss the feeling of having someone look at me with so much love.   

-  I miss the embrace that makes me feel sleepy.

-  I miss the spontaneity of having to watch a movie out of impulse. 

-  I miss walking hand in hand.

-  I miss minimum of 2-hour long talks over the phone.   

-  I miss being embraced from behind.

-  I miss the kisses on the forehead.

-  I miss the kisses… period.

-  I miss the protectiveness.

-  I miss being taken care of

-  I miss someone looking after me

I miss you.

 

Day 10: The Weather

Weather…

The weather over the past few days were gloomy.  I felt dreadful.  Haze has overwhelmed the whole city.  Dusts everywhere.  It’s scary to drive, because there are times when you can’t see what’s in front of you.

This hasn’t happened in a while.  I have experienced sandstorms and driven through it, but never this intense.

The sandstorm that occurred recently before the haze blew hot air – warm.  Scary whistling air through the windows.  The dusts seeps through the doors’ openings.  No one was outside.  It feels like a ghost town.

After the sandstorm, came chilly wind – indicative that the winter isn’t over, just yet.  But now, the overwhelming haze caused me to feel dread.  The dreary weather continues.

In the horizon, I can’t see the mountains anymore.  The fog covered it.  The sky hasn’t been clear in a few days.  There are brown clouds all over and I can’t even see the sun.  The wind is still chilly, seething and creeping on your skin.  No matter how many times you dusts the dirt of your window, it will still be dirty.

However, I need to shake the feeling of dread.  It feels like something’s about to happen that I don’t know - like something bad.  Then, I heard news of an upcoming storm.  I forgot that this will happen soon.  Don’t want to drive through puddles of rain water or through hail storm while stuck in traffic.  I wish I’m in the safety of our home when this happen.

God keep us safe.

Day 9: My Favourite thing to do right now

My favorite thing to do right now?

Sleep.  I am sleep deprived for the past few days and my bed is calling me, considering it’s in the middle of the day, in the office, juggling work and errands.  I can’t just give in to the call of the very comfy chair, shut my eyes, and drift away.

I am not trying to be lazy nor do I give in to the call of the “bed”.  I am just saying, that right now, if you asked me, what’s my favourite thing to do?  I would say, I want to go to sleep.

We have all been there, that dreary feeling - the feeling of laziness, the feeling of relaxation, the call of the wild and the call of the bed.  But hey! Just because they call, doesn’t mean you have to reply.

I got tons of errands at work and at home that needs tending.  My plants are almost dried up and are thirsty again.  The laundry basket piled up with clothes without me realizing it.  I just dumped the clothes and ignore it most of the time. 

The computer and other work related stuff had been sorted.  Some more stuff and reports have to be typed and formatted.  A few more letters to distribute, emails to be replied.  I really need to stay awake and sort this out.

So right now, I have a cup of coffee in hand, prioritizing work (more like procrastinating), and praying not to fall asleep.  This day will be over before I know it.