Monday, July 18, 2011

Unusual Rant

This is an outrage. It has been days since I have updated my blog. I have been posting the Titles everyday but never had anything written in it. ***groaning***

Never realized this is going to be hard. I thought writing what you think will be so simple. I mean, I talk a lot anyway. So writing should be a breeze... NOT!

Topics are becoming more personal, or at least personal to me. It is hard to let yourself out there for the whole world to read. Not ready for that, I guess. Still need to make my thoughts and my writing more generic. :P

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

The Truth: Day 20 - Your Views On Drugs And Alcohol

Like any known diseases, there are cures. Cures that often require help from wonder drugs, alternative or conventional. And we cannot deny its effect. You can call that pseudo effect but still, the drugs helped you at least lessen the pain and make you feel more comfortable. As for alcohol, one to two shots I guess is fine.

In the end, we know that anything excessive is bad. It is us who abuses these products (as you may say). These products are here for consumption, entertainment and for better life. Abusing these products could result to even more problems instead of cures and a bit of entertainment.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

The Truth: Day 19 - What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Whoever you are, whatever you do, no matter how hard you try to escape it, people will still look for something to believe into. You may declare your atheist, you do not have religion. But more likely, there is something you believe in... It may not be God, but something.

What do I think of religion?

Regardless of what your religion is, religion for me is what gives you direction as to how you worship, who are you worshiping, and what your worship is about. It gives you guidelines, set of rules. And although most of them are basically hard to understand, it matters because without rules, its chaos. And without doctrines and beliefs, who exactly are we worshiping that is worth worshiping?

What do I think about politics?

I consider myself apolitical. I never really liked politics, because of the politicians. I know no one is perfect but with all the scandals they got involved in, it loses my confidence in politics.
We need government, whether we like it or not. These sets of rules are made to make our society a peaceful, united community and united people. These rules are implemented in order to manage people, an institution and organization.

It is sad that the government and politics are stained because of lousy politicians and their corrupt mentality. If they only have their goals and their objectives in mind and the people cooperate, our community, our world would not be as chaotic as it is now.

As for politics and religion, the rules set by politicians are based from what the religion and God had set. I hope that eventually, all of us cooperate and unite to achieve our societal and governmental goals.

Monday, July 11, 2011

The Truth: Day 18 - Your views on gay marriage

Whoever we are, whatever your preference, we are all allowed to love. It may not be conventional or acceptable to others, but loving someone isn't a crime.

Whatever my views are with gay marriage, one thing is for sure, if you love someone fight for it. As long as you're not hurting anyone, go ahead.

Do I need to say anything more?

Saturday, July 9, 2011

The Truth: Day 16 - Someone or something you definitely could live without

I don't know. I guess NONE. If I have a connection with someone, like we bonded, it's always hard to let go. The same with things. If it is something that had value to me, I couldn't let it go.

I could probably go without coffee for weeks or months for that matter. I am not a coffee addict so it's not a loss for me. I can do without certain delicacies because I am a very picky eater.

Not really the thought that I want to convey, but that's exactly what's on my mind at the moment. There is nothing that I could live without. Nothing I want to let go. Everything is special. :)

Sorry.. too short.

Friday, July 8, 2011

The Truth: Day 15 - Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Yeah, I'm kind of shallow. I'm not active either so I often spend most of my time watching TV or internet surfing. I know, not exactly a way to live and spend your waking hours. But that's the routine. I wake up, work, surf internet, go home, watch TV, sleep - the usual routine. I do go out occasionally when someone invites me. But if there's not a need to go out, I'm just at home. I kind of like it.

So I can honestly say that I cannot live without my computer, an internet connection and a television. Of course, there are still the needs like food, shelter, security and everything. But other than those, the most superficial things that I cannot live without are the internet, computer, cellphone (considering I am not fond of texting and calling), and the TV.

As for someone, I cannot live without my family. Awww... I love them. Although we live apart, especially now, I still feel we are together. I cannot live without friends. Not just any friend, FFFRRRIIIEEENNNDDSSS.... well, no one is an island. I tried not being open with anyone. Tried not making friends or not having deep connections with friends, didn't like it. I still made friends and really close ones.

It took me a while to wake up and grow up. I guess growing up will happen whether you like it or not. It's only a matter of time.  Crossing my fingers!!!!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

The Truth: Day 14 - A hero that has let you down. (letter)

I don't have a hero but there is someone i look up to that had let me down.

In light of what i feel for you, I dedicate these songs to you:

I'm so sorry...

I promised to write 250-words.. A song probably has more than that. They clearly state what i feel and I guess, this is it. I can't face it but we can't delay the inevitable. :(

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

The Truth: Day 13 - A Band Or Artist That Has Gotten You Through Some Tough Ass Days. (write a letter.)

I am not very particular with bands nor artists. I do have favorites but I having nothing particular. I just like them all. I do not pay attention with the artists or band, just the songs.

So, this part is hard. I do not know whom to address my letter. A band or artist who has helped me through some rough ass days, hmmm? :P

Should there be one, which one will it be? and I don't know what to say. I'll probably be one of the groupie who would follow them around, mesmerized, tongue-tied and just deeply looking at them. Or it could be like I don't know them at all or would be like "yeah, I know them.. so what?" LOL! Cool!

So my letter to them:

Dear my favorite band or artist:

You may have gotten tons of fanmails and thank you notes from all admirers and aspiring artists that imitates you. Regardless, I just want to let you know how much your music had mean to me. You inspire me to hold on, move on and be in-control. Your music had gotten me through my rough ass days and I have learned a lot.

I hope you will still be able to make such beautiful, inspiring music. I also hope that more people be inspired to it as it had inspired me. Thank you. No words can express my deep appreciation. 


Well, I have a lot of favorite artists and bands so I can't exactly tell which one is my most favorite and which one had gotten me through some rough ass days. I'll just make it general. :)

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

The Truth: Day 12 - Something You Never Get Compliments On

Hmmm... I admit there are just some things that I do not know and I do not care to know. There are also some things I know that I just kept to myself - selfish. Usually, I never get complemented with my looks, personality, and my intelligence? (am i?).. LOL!

I get the occasional remarks like, you're so smart and you look nice.. "Nice!" and "Smart" nothing else. Might as well say, you're average, which is what I am. Not that I have anything against average. I have always been average. Well, I am not the prettiest nor the most beautiful.  I am also not the smartest nor the most intelligent, so its better than nothing. :)

I also never get complimented about my singing voice (like I have). Again, there goes the occasional, "you sound good". There goes my singing career! hahaha! :))

I never really pay attention to complements. In fact, I think it’s our culture that made us modest and not take complements. Everybody loves flattery (who doesn’t). Everyone wants to get praises and complements. But whenever I get complements, I feel like I’m being conceited. When being acknowledged for a job well done by my superiors, I feel that I don’t deserve them.

If I do something, I do not expect complements. If I get it, thank you. If not, it’s all part of the job. So for those who feel like complementing this blog, thank you. If not, thanks for dropping by. At least I know I’m not talking to myself.

Monday, July 4, 2011

The Truth: Day 11 - Something People Seem To Compliment You The Most On

I have previously posted what I think people compliment me on. Honestly, I really have no idea. I think it is better to ask the people who are close to me or the people I deal with everyday. 

They would probably give you a better description of what I actually do best because I can't figure it out. The most certain is whenever I do something, I try to give my best, regardless whether I like the job or not. It's not about the job. It's about me. I know it sounds selfish.

Just to give a glimpse of myself:

and here:

I think that's enough. :)

Sunday, July 3, 2011

The Truth: Day 10- Someone You Need To Let Go, Or Wish You Didn’t Know

I can't explain why I need to let go of a person from a third person perspective. So just imagine me writing a letter to the one I need to let go... and here goes:


Dear You:

I need to let go of you. I wouldn't be where I am today if it weren't for you. You have helped me through rough times in my life and I truly appreciate what you did for me. Things haven't come easy. And, the harder we try, the more I know that things really aren't suppose to be.

I never wished not knowing you. I have loved you so much but I do not think it would be enough for me to consider being with you. It hurts. Everytime I realize that, everytime I think about it, it makes me cry. I have been paralyzed. I denied it. I rationalized it but at the end, the answer is still the same.

You have no idea how much I've prayed for things to work out. I have prayed so hard that things will come back again, things will be the same again. I have become another person and I know you did too. Distance had made me stronger.  It had made you vulnerable, however.

I wanted so badly to be you. I never wanted it to end this way. I prayed for my fondness to return, for the feelings to return. When it did, it is short-lived.

You have to understand whenever I am with you, I am genuinely happy. I never wanted the moment to end. But reality is a bitch. Our life isn't bed of roses and the longer I deny, and prolong my delusion, it will still spell "the end". I am truly sorry.

I wish you happiness. I wish you love. I wish for everything you need to be brought to you.


P.S. I am still praying for us.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

The Truth: Day 09 - Someone You Didn’t Want To Let Go, But Just Drifted

No one likes goodbyes further more, no one wants to drift apart. Every relationship I had I have cherished whether it is short-lived or life-long. I always appreciate my friends and I often (not all the time) listen to their advice.

People have come and gone in our lives and changed it. I like that they are still out there and know that I am still here for them should they want to regain our relationship.

There maybe a couple of people who I wish I was still friends with, but they chose (not me) to just let it go. I do not know their intentions nor the reasons, we just grew apart. And I have tried to reconnect with them. I looked for them on facebook, asked around about them, tried once or twice to send them an email but with no reply. I just think they're all busy. But I guess it was meant to be.

No matter what I know I'll always remember them. They have made an impact in my life and that's basically what everyone wants in this world. To matter, to make an impact to someone. And I do hope, I have made an impact on them too.

Goodbyes are part of our lives. It's inevitable. It just hurts and that's probably why I do not like goodbyes... only see you later. I do hope to see them all again and let them know how much their friendship mean to me. I hope God oversees them. I pray for their successes, for protection and for blessings to shower over them. And, I'll see you later.

Friday, July 1, 2011

The Truth: Day 08 - Someone Who Made Your Life Hell, Or Treated You Like Shit

I am going to skip this one out. That should be a good thing. No one treated me like shit or made my life a living hell as I didn't allow it to happen to me. I used to just keep my feelings to myself and not talk about it. I always try to be in other people's shoes and think of how hurtful words can be.

Unfortunately, you get passed by and taken for granted if you don't talk. I learned now that you can still say what you want without being rude. I never really believed in treat others the they treat you. LOL! Being diplomatic has its perks. People notice you, they respect you, and they listen. 

Of course, being human makes me vulnerable to outburst which is apparently quite often than i thought especially during that time of the month. It is hell!

So for someone who treated me like shit or made me think that life is hell, I'll pray for you. I would rather be alone than be with someone who made me feel stupid and that I wasn't worth it. Like I'm imperfect and that I was not enough. At the end of the day, I've proved that I am worthy, and I am enough. I do not need someone like that in my life and that I can do it on my own. As a matter of fact, my life has a clearer perspective when I got rid of you. Think of it this way, it's your loss, not mine. My bad... :P