Thursday, March 31, 2011

Day 24: Describe spontaneous moment in your life that turned out to be fantastic

I think it was more than a year ago, my mom got into a huge fight. Whenever I am angry, I try not to talk at all. So I gave her the silent treatment and so did she which lasted about a month, all of because of something petty.

Anyway, that month, I decided so badly to get out of their shadow, as in be on my own. Being the planner that I am, I do not want to go be spontaneous, so I planned my moves well. I thought I want to be anywhere but here. So I looked for jobs online. I was desperate. I wanted to go out the soonest possible time.

I then found the site for online TEFL course. I told myself “this is worth a shot, as long as I am out of here soon.”  In fact, I really wanted to get out so badly that anything will be okay for me.

Anyway, I enrolled in the online class. My mom saw me studying yet never asked. Again, the silent treatment. But before I even finished the course, my mom and I patched up. I finished the course within 2 months time from the enrolment and got a free additional online course (which is about a $100 value).

I finished that too and I have an option to do a teaching practice in Spain, Italy and Thailand. I chose Thailand because I do not need a visa to go there and it’s cheaper.

Turns out, the spontaneous thing is the most fun I had. I get to experience travelling, meet people from all nations, and gained the experience I needed. It may not be enough but at least I had what it takes (according to them).

Now I got a teaching certificate, fun experience and friends from all over the world. Thanks to that spontaneous event!

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Day 23: Describe a truly spiritual moment in your life

Everyday is a spiritual moment for me. I know it is a cliché but that is how I feel. Everyday is a blessing. I may not realize it at that moment but it is. The fact that you are still breathing, alive, awake… it is a blessing and spiritual.

I have come to know God at a very early age. I may not have taken it seriously then but at least I come to know that God existed. Like I said in my previous posts, the fact that someone cares for you and would protect you from anything, would not harm you and will always be there for you, that is how God is introduced to me.

That God loves children… which He does, even those who are in their second childhood… LOL!

I have realized how important God’s role in my life is, when I was in college. We were left on our own. We were not abandoned but we just need to be. God has been in control. If not, we would have been astray for a very long time.

Although we were on our own, we have managed to finish our studies, find descent jobs and have made a career. All of us have eventually come together as a family and still is until now.

It may seem immature when a grown up still lives with his/her family but that is practically normal for us. And eventhough sometimes your family gets in your nerves, it has brought us closer. And above all, God is still in control.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Day 22: Describe a dark/turbulent moment in your life

I have my share of dark times and believe me, I sometimes just want to scream out loud and cry out to God to deliver me to such darkness. I am not a negative person nor am I a positive. But I try to be an optimist. I try to see the bright side to everything.

I try to forget the turbulent moments in my life. I do not even want to talk about it. I find that I do not want to dwell in the past yet I still live them. I just feel that past is something to be left behind. Learn your lesson and move on.

I believe the turbulence I have experienced is not the darkest. I actually think that if there is, it something that will be in the future. I just think that whatever I have, whatever happened to me, and whatever will happen to me, God is there.

I got through everything because of the strength He has given me and all that will happen to me, He will still be in control. I believe that God has made everything in my life easy. God made it easy and He will never give us problem we cannot solve. All we have to do is pray for His guidance and let everything fall into place.

I have cried out so many times. I have even probably have given up in certain problems. But problems are there to mold us. I guess no matter how I ignore, problems will still be there unless you face them. And it is with God that I was able to overcome all of my problems and all of my future problems.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Day 21: Write about your best friend (not significant other) and what makes them special

I rarely have friends. It is not hard for me to meet people. In fact, people are drawn to me. But only few would I consider my best friends, those that I share my secrets, whom I can always be myself and who could actually ride on my tantrums.

A few years ago, I chose not to open up with people I just met. People drawn to me find it easy for them to open up to me even with their inner most feelings. Unfortunately for me, it is not that easy. I chose not to open up, I chose to be quiet. So I truly value my best friends’ friendship and I intend to make our relationship lasts.

I cannot write what their names are but just a description of them.

  1. My college friends and ‘pinas friends. Regardless of what group you belong to, once in the classroom, we are one big “barkada” – friends. We are all close and still in contact with each other. Some, I have lost touch with but others, oh yeah… still in contact. These friends of mine have been with me through the darkest days. They may not know it but they have always made my day. 2 of them are those that I treasure the most. I miss them and I love spending time with them.
  1. Oman friends. Some have just been formed and from different nationalities. I love hanging around with them and I can be myself with them. I hope I get my message across. I do consider them special and that I will always treasure their friendship. I thank God for introducing us.
  1. Phuket friends. We may not have spent incredible amount of time but I have loved the times we spend with each other. I really wish we will meet again.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Day 20: Describe your favorite movie and why it's so special to you

I do not have one, but several favorite movies. I am not a movie addict but I love watching movies. If there are movies that I consider my favorite, they are:

  1. Monster’s Inc. – I love cartoons and animations. And Pixar has done its best when they have made and shown monster’s inc. I fell in love with the characters especially the cute little kid named BOO. It has no significance except for the entertaining nature of this movie. I just loved it.
  1. Harry Potter Series – it is special because it is something my sister and I share. We both liked Harry Potter.
  1. Shrek Series – the movie franchise that never cease to make me laugh. I loved the beginning but not so much as the end. I love the epilogues and the extra scenes they have at the end of the movies.
  1. Toy story 3 – it reminded me of Thailand and how much fun I had when I was there.
  1. Shaolin soccer – no matter how hard I try, this movie is incredibly hilarious.  I have seen it several times. Some have already been dubbed in English. Some scenes have been cut in another version. I fell in love with it the first time I have seen it. No cuts, no dubbing, just the subtitles and I am not surprised why people made it one of their all time favorite movie.
  1. How to lose a guy in 10 days – I guess I am a sucker for romantic comedies.

Hope one of them is your favorite.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Day 19: Something that shook your belief system to its core (a big disappointment in your life)

Shook my belief? I do not think it is my belief that is shaken but my ambition. I guess I would say I am ambitious and that is my weakness. I always felt and believe that I can do something better. I can be better off. I could get better… meaning I deserve to have more.

Selfish? Maybe. Is it really bad to want something you know you could have if you worked hard for it? I do not want to be rich. I just want to live comfortably. It is disappointing if I put my trust in people and end up with nothing. No word of honor.

I tell myself if I want to accomplish something, I should do it and not depend on others. I have been doing that and procrastinating. Believed it so well, people think of me as someone who would go places, yet I get left behind. I can achieve something if someone will just support me.

Emotional support, I can have. Financial support, another question. It is something I have to work for, myself. Everything I have now, I have worked for. it I did not depend on others to do it for me. I hate it when people assume you are going to do something for them. They depend on others for emotional, financial and other aspect, they do not want to do it  for themselves anymore.

I guess the most disappointing moment for me is to realize I cannot depend on others, only myself. I am not greedy but having money motivates me to work hard to achieve my dreams. And that is what I am doing now.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Day 18: Someone you met randomly that's made an impact in your life

As you may have read, I am not much of an outgoing person. I would love to go travelling but it seems I enjoy being alone more than going outdoors. Having said that, there are few people I randomly met that made an impact in my life.

I do not get too close to people easily and I do not open up to them right away. I do not talk about my feelings. I do not know how to express them either. I just know that I have to let it out somehow. That may be the reason I write.

Anyway, as for the people I have met, they probably are the people I met in Thailand and had become my friends. I never expected to get close to them or had an instant connection with any of them. But we all got along just fine and we seemed to have known each other like forever. I never had a connection like that even with my classmates.

I do like the feeling of having friends from different places. It may not be as close as to what I have with my really, really close best friends, but it could develop to that if I let it. I thought I would be left out, an outcast. But they embraced my uniqueness and I do accept their uniqueness too. It is what got us interested with each other and what connected us.

Not being in my own country is scary. These people also felt what I have felt. Our connection made me feel that I belong and that they will be my friends. It may not be for a long time but I do know we are still going to be friends. J

Thursday, March 24, 2011

Day 17: Someone with whom you shared a friendship/relationship that simply drifted out of your life

When I was a freshman in high school, I have this friend.  He became my best friend. We had so much fun going to the church and actively participating in all the church youth activities. We were not the only one who is close, but our families too.

We got each other’s back. There were times when the whole congregation was against our families for some sort of a conflict but we stayed close.  We both got involve in relationships. When he started dating a friend, I suddenly became closer to his ex-girlfriend and then, afterwards, he started drifting away.

He became busy with school work and I was still involved with church and school activities. I do not know why and what happened. We just suddenly grew apart. He got involved with school friends and so was I. Most of our church friends also started going away and we have not been the same again.

I miss them. These friends have been with me through the worst and the best time of my high school / childhood days. I was not that close to anyone and I never got close to anyone the same as I have been with them.

But regardless, I know we are still friends. No matter where they are. I know that God keeps them safe and our families are in still in touch. We can always see each other soon as we fit in everybody else’s schedule. I wish to see them all again and get a chance to catch up with each other’s activities. J

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Day 16: A Book You've Read that Changed your views on something

I am not really bookish. I am not fond of reading but I do read once in a while. And more often than not, I read mostly financial and business books. I do read fiction but not as often as I want to. Basically, I learn more reading non-fiction business and financial books than fiction, for obvious reasons.

I have a background in business and finance, so it is inevitable that I like to read those that I can understand. Fiction for me is something I read for entertainment purposes and should not be taken seriously. I am not fond of self help books too. I do not want to be compartmentalized into something that I know I am not.

If there is a book that I would say shook my belief and views of something, it is the Bible. I guess not many people read it and I have to admit that I do not read them as often as I should. It shakes my beliefs and I feel such a sinner, that I am not worthy.

I see my inequities and that is probably why I do not read it as often as I should. But since the word of God is unchanging, I hang on to His promises which are in the Bible. Those I see as good, where actually bad. And the truth is, we can live fruitfully with God by our side.

Everyone seems to think that if you want to serve God, you should be poor. It is not necessarily poor financially, but for me, what it meant is that we need to keep longing for God’s presence in us and hunger for His word and promises, poor in heart for His blessings and provisions. That is what I understood.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Day 15: A Band / Musical artist whose music impacted your life

I love music. I love to sing. But I never paid much attention to the singers and the artists. I like listening to music, dancing through it, and singing with it.

I do not know why I never paid attention to the artists. Maybe because it disappoints me. There are so many artists trying to break into the music industry yet most of their careers are short-lived. They do not last long. They are either involved in some scandal, being chased after by paparazzi, or the last few singles they have really sucked.

I really love music and I love songs. Contemporary music became more of a hype just to keep up with the trend of current generation. The lyrics do not have anything valuable. Content itself is rubbish. That is just sad. After a few months of being in the charts, the song suddenly subsides and before you know it, people do not recognize the song anymore.

Probably the band that has a bit of an impact for me is the band U2. Again, I like music, not much of a rock person but there are few favorites now and then. The Red Hot Chili Peppers are also my favorite. And as for the artist, I like Eminem.

I have heard about the bands story. How they started, what have happened to them along the way, and how they got to where they are now. They pay much attention to the lyrics and the composition. They do not just play for the sake of playing.

I may not be paying much attention to the artist but I pay most of my attention to the song. The song has to be inspiring.  It should bring out the artists’ feelings. These artists’ songs are classic and brought impact to me. Why not pay attention to the lyrics and see what the song is really about. They may seem rubbish to you, but definitely not to me.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Day 14: Someone who has made your life worth living

Who do you think it is? Hmm… my parents, my siblings, my bf, my friends, and my God. Oh yes. No matter how hard I ignore, I feel God’s presence with me all the time. Knowing that God is within me and with me, I am never alone, and everything will eventually get back to normal.

If God is with you and within you, believe that He will give you strength.  Nothing can compare to Him. My problems seems so little compare to what he has provided for me. I know.  It is such a cliché. But that is how I feel.

I still worry. That our initial reaction. But God made my life worth living because He makes me feel safe. He gives me the solutions to my problems. I always come to Him whenever I have problems and a peace comes to me and I believe that everything will eventually fall into place.

Everything seems different when God is with you. It is not that you do not care about what is around you. You are actually more aware of what is happening around you, but with a different eye. You become more emphatic, more sensitive, more caring.  You see more of the good than the bad at any situations.

If God is with you, who could be against you. People may let you down but God does not. That is why I rely on Him. It is why my life is worth living, and the reason my life has a purpose now.

Day 13: Discuss some of the things on your bucket list

I try to keep my goals as simple and as realistic as possible. If I were to make a bucket list, I can honestly say I will not be able to do some of it. Like in the previous posts, I wanted to be brave. So I will try the extremes. I would like to do bungee jumping (which I almost did in Thailand. Unfortunately, none of my friends want to accompany me… They are all scared of heights). I also want to do banana boat ride, parasailing, go-cart racing, travel solo (country-hopping) and most of all be successful.

I know the last one is broad. I really do not know what to do to be successful but I am trying to do whatever I can now. I do not know exactly what career to take but life is full of trials and errors. So this career did not work out for me, maybe I can do better in another one. That is basically how I see things.

I always look on the bright side. I say that failures are actually little triumphs. Without failures, how will we know if the thing we chase is good for us or not. Our characters are shaped with failures. I do not consider them failures anymore. I always see the big picture. Everything I have done so far has brought me to a better and new me. I see the lessons each trials and mishaps bring.

I will try my best to achieve everything in my bucket list, one at a time. My bucket list so far is half full (or half empty). And I believe it will never be full.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Day 12: Something you hope to change about yourself and why


People say that you have to be contended with what you have or was it make the best of what you have… something to that content. I do not know if it is applicable as people also generally are not satisfied with whatever they have. We always aspire for something we cannot have.

Anyway, if there is something I want to change about myself, given a chance, I would probably want to eliminate procrastination and fear. My procrastination is brought by my fears; fear of the unknown, fear of being alone, fear of being unlikeable, fear of becoming unsuccessful, fear of being poor, etc. Irrational? Maybe, but those are my fears.

Who does not have fears? I bet it may not be the same as mine but we all fear of what is not known, of what we do not understand. I hope I can be brave. I want to change procrastination to being brave. I do not want to put things off anymore. I want to be free and chase my dreams.

It is simple, but not easy. Nothing in life comes easy anyway. I guess what I am saying is. It is never too late for me to take the step and do some work. I can eventually work on my procrastination and be brave once in a while. I can only take it one step at a time. Prioritize.

My fears will never go away but I know I will eventually overcome. I have done it before and I most certainly can do it again, with God’s help and blessings.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Day 11: Something about which people seems to compliment you

I do not really pay attention to what I do. So it often comes as a surprise when someone gives me a complement. When I was still studying, I usually get attention and complements from my teachers. Everyone thinks I was a teacher’s pet yet I do not feel that way. My teachers may have paid close attention to me and have particularly kept an eye on my activities but I do not consider that being a teacher’s pet. But according to my fellow students, it is favoritism.

As I got older, it is not anymore the prestige of academics, as the basis for the complements. It now becomes the job or work. As I have said over and over on my previous post, I always do my best in everything that I do, because I do not want to be perceived as someone who just goof around, although, I do… sometimes.

And then, my sweetness also became evident. I like to keep my friends close. And when I am close to someone, I always say or show my appreciation to them. I often complement them, and they also take notice of the small gestures I do for them, and complement me on my sweetness too.

I feel that whatever it is inside you, it shines or radiate outwardly. People complement me because I made an ordinary become extraordinary. It may be a lot of pressure but I wanted to always be my best so people see how well my parents had brought us up, and what I have done to be what I am.

As the saying goes, what you are is God’s gift to you, what you become is your gift to God.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Day 10: Something at which you've been a champion or the best

I like so many things and I want to be good at all of it. I obviously cannot do everything, but in everything I do, I always do my best. I do not have anything particular that I can say I am really good at. I just know that I intend to make everything I do look good and be at my best.

Like what I wrote in one of my blogs, “In everything I do, I always do my best, even if it is something I do not like. Why? Because it reflects me. I like pretty things, being organized and being in control. I always want to be perceived as someone who knows what to do and do it best. You do not have to love your job, you just have to love yourself.”

It is not easy though. I really cannot think of something I am really good at. I am the best at. I have never been a champion of anything at school. I just know I have good grades. I like math but then again, not everyone like it and there are people who are better at it than me.

I feel I do not have to be good at everything, but be the best at one thing. I have not found that niche yet. Right now, I am just putting my focus on writing. I may not win writing contests or Pulitzer price. I just want to be good at something. In the end, I do not have to say to myself, “what if?” because I tried it. I may fail, but at least I tried.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Day 09: Typical Day at home when not in vacation (Vacation Hiatus)

I never really like the great outdoors. I do appreciate a good scene and a camp-out once in a while. But I do not intend to be on a camping trip for a week or more than 3 days. Overnight camping is fine for me. I have so many concerns when it comes to going out.

In short, I am not really the most outgoing person. It may not seem like that, cause for someone who does not go out that much, I know too much about the great outdoors. I think I can survive a day or two outside our place. But my biggest concern whenever I go out is the toilet. I mean, where can I go?

That is why most of my times are spent at home. I may not look like someone who loves to be by herself most of the time, but I kind of do. I embraced my introverted-ness, as my friend said. I actually love being alone…sometimes. I do want to go out and meet people, I also do. I can be comfortable in a crowd yet be intimate with few close friends.

(Typically, I mean on a regular basis) At home, I often just watch TV. When I get tired of watching or if there is nothing good on, I put on DVDs which I watched over and over until I memorized the dialogues. I still make time to write and to read. Mostly, I read blogs. But if I feel like it and I get the chance, I read ebooks and books. I have several of it at home, believe it or not.

I can cook, but not fond of cooking. I do manage to do some chores and I may not be good at it, but the place seems clean to me. I like to put things in their places. I like to organize, but not at home. My mom does that job.

But I know that living by myself would not sound bad for me. I just knew deep down I can survive and I know I will do well. I think I am ready to be on my own. :)

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Day 08: Typical Day at home during vacation (Vacation Hiatus)

I only go home once a year, for a full month. I know it is not exactly ideal. I get bored at work sometimes and I always look forward for vacation.

Before my vacation, I make a plan of projects to be achieved while at home. Often, it is a venture, either looking for earning possibilities or a trip to go to. The first time I went home, I planned to invest. So I went and looked for mutual funds and other investment instruments. I saw couple of instruments that are worthy to invest into, so that’s what I did.

The previous year, I went and study abroad for a teaching course. I spent most of my vacation days there, more than what I have at home. It is worth it. Well, worth the time.

But typically, I am not in pursuit of the projects I intend to do. I often spend my time in the mall.  Not to go and splurge, more of just window shopping. It has always been hot and humid in our place, and we wanted to cool off. So we spend hours in the mall just to get a bit of coolness coming from the centralized mall air-conditioners.

If not, we would go to the resort, walking distance from our place and bask in the coolness as the water enticed us. I would love to go back and get into the pool again with a new me. I wish I can swim.  Hahaha! :)

Monday, March 14, 2011

Day 07: Typical Day at work (Vacation Hiatus)

I’m not in the mood today. I actually don’t feel like working. Getting a bit worked up about what happened to me this morning. I just started driving. And I know people mean well, but I can’t help but get mad when people are actually telling me how to drive while I’m driving. Don’t I get to make my own decisions?

And this isn’t work. Not yet. I haven’t even arrived at the office yet. The day just got started. My boss isn’t around so I get to goof off for a while. But then, our system is down and the internet is so slow. What could possibly go wrong this time?

I am not looking forward till the end of the day. This is not my typical day at work. I wasn’t planning to start my day with dynamite, and I hate that I get worked up at the start of the day.

I need to calm myself down, relax and be positive at least until I get the day done.  I need to think about happy thoughts and soothing sceneries and songs. I really need to calm down. I can’t help but rant everything here in blog.

At least now, I get to read something. Add knowledge. Not write for after this, and only when I feel like it. Listening to the latest tracks saved in my computer. And then, just then, will I be okay until the end of the day. I still look forward for the activities which I get to do today. I just hope I forgot all about the rant and just keep myself busy.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Day 06: Something that excites you and fills you with joy

I consider myself ambitious. So ambitious, I tend do everything right and well at everything I do. But I am also fearful. Fearful of the risks I have to take just to see the fulfillment of my dreams.

That’s what excites me. The fact that I have to face challenges and risks makes me feel that everything is worth it. What I have I have worked for and I have achieved on my own. It fills me with joy if I have accomplished something, even if it is something small.

I like going through the net and look for free online courses. I have detailed some of it in one of my blogs. Basically, I have done several online courses and have gotten certificates from those sites too. If I want an international recognized certificate, they can also give it to me but I think there’s a certain fee. I don’t care much about the payment. The fact that I got a degree online which is internationally recognized, who wouldn’t want to spend a dime for that?

Unfortunately, that’s all I can do for now. I don’t know why I am so scared of taking a leap and get the degree I have always wanted abroad. Maybe when I do have a chance, I can make it someday.

I hope time comes when I am not so fearful anymore. And that I can take anything lightly and with grace. I hope that someday, I get to do the extremes and be grateful about what I have achieved. Again, hopeful.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Day 05: Something in Life that Gives you balance

What gives me balance? I guess it’s my faith. Call me crazy but that’s what gives me purpose.  That's what gives me hope. I always feel that everything is going to work out no matter what happens.  I usually freak out when I feel that I don’t have any control but there is calmness whenever I think or believe that God is in control and that everything will be okay, eventually.

I may not see it the goodness now, but everything seems to be working out the way God intended, at least for me. That’s how I feel. I feel that God is directing me to a place where he wants me to be.  Just when I thought there’s no other way, here He is, giving me options, more than I can handle.

I dreamed of travelling. And for years, I never got the chance to do that until a confrontation led me to studying abroad.  What do you know? I didn’t just go to one country. I went to 4 in one month. Nice!

Faith drives me to strive what I can do, do my best and God will reward me. On all the obstacles I have faced, be it big or small, I always know there is a way. I worry. I still do but at the end of the day, I know things will be in order.

Problems are just there to strengthen me. It brought me closer to God and kept my faith in tack. My problems may be small for others, but this isn’t a contest. Whatever your problems, they are big for you. Just know that God is bigger than your problems, everything has a solution and God will be there for you.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Day 04: Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy

Part of my routine that I enjoy is internet browsing. It might be boring for others but I learn so much on the internet.  Internet browsing may not be for everyone but it is to me.

Not everyone knows that I’m introvert. I like being myself most of the time and if I ever get the itch to go somewhere, I just go. Well, I still need to plan them.  It must be the fear of losing control that made me want to be alone.  I always think that if you want something done right, do it yourself. Haha!

While browsing, I get to do free online courses and I’ve done several.  Some of which offers certificate courses, again for free. I get to enhance my writing skills by writing everyday. I also browse the internet all day, and get in touch with friends and families all over the world. Some of which I just met, while others have been part of my life since I was young.

Internet has been an integral part of my day. I feel like an addict on withdrawal because of too much internet browsing in my system.  I feel I can’t survive without browsing.  I like also like the idea that I can go on with my day without going through the internet. I hope I can do that.

But now, I am really dependent on the internet for work and other services. I just can’t see the day without it. Eventually, I have to learn that the world does not end even when there’s no internet. Things will be a lot slower though, but we can survive!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Day 03: Something with which you struggle

Struggle? I find the word rather difficult to understand. I didn't feel there was a struggle in my life. If there are, I probably have not realized it. That’s it’s already in my face.

But if there is any, it is probably procrastination. I kept putting everything off and unfortunately, never decide to ever do it.

When things got at out hand and I feel the need to scream, I find myself calm. I can’t lose control, thinking problems will soon go away. I’m not saying I run from a struggle or problem, but I know when to avoid it, when to work it out and when to just let it be.

All that has happened in my life, I only come to realize later. I never had the chance to think about it sooner and if I do, I procrastinate.

What else? Hmmm… I don’t like confrontation and I hate being hated. I try things that will please more people. I say “I don’t care” when it’s not actually true. I do care what people say and what people expect. I always think of the most appropriate words and do what is generally right.

People may not find these a struggle. But it takes a lot of effort for me to do them. It had been difficult to give up and change my perspective just to overcome what I struggle. It is not completely gone but I have already started working on it. I am not disappointed if its still there every now and then, but if it does not impair my activities, I am totally up to it.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Day 02: Something you regret not having done last year

I kind of want to live my life without regrets. Stand by my decisions and be firm. Take the consequences, that sort of things. I don't want to live my life full of regrets.

Anyway, for the sake of writing, I do have some things that made me sad, probably because I haven't done it... yet! But at least I still have a chance to do something about it. It is never too late. I have to admit most of the things I have not done are not that extravagant, but it is a big deal to me.

Here goes:
  • Have not been updating my blog
  • Not finding my niche
  • Haven't completely made a career in writing yet (tried, but I am not up to the challenge yet) but does article writing for website counts?
  • Not being able to teach full-time yet
  • Studying spoken Arabic but never get to practice it
  • Not being able to save
  • Not being able to invest
  • Not being able to find what truly inspires me and makes me happy... Still struggling! Still Optimistic!
I'm not bothered anymore about not being able to do things my way. Having a plan made me realize that things don't always go your way but having a direction is. There are so many roads to take going to the same direction and I must have taken the long way.

All I can do now is work on what my flaws are. Try to change. Be responsible. And let things fall into place. This may not be the time for all of it. But there will be eventually... :)

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Day 01: Something to look forward to this year

Not really into the details but i like setting goals. It gives me direction. It may not be fun for someone or would probably back people off from me because I often take things seriously. But I like that I have direction. I like that I have purpose and I like that I seem to have control over everything.

Anyway, this year, got to get things started and pursue my goals... my other goals. Besides writing of course. I like writing but I do not know where to start and what my niche is. So until I figure that out, better get the ball rolling.

My goals this year:
  • Travel. Go back to Thailand and Singapore or go to Malaysia and Hongkong or tour around the country. If I have the means, why not US?
  • Apply for a full-time writing job online or full-time teaching job (if applicable)
  • Hmmm... dilemma, should i pursue migration or buy a house and lot?
  • Extensively improve my writing skills and if i get the chance, enhance my teaching skills as well... LOL! :))
  • Get my Driver's License... (already have)
  • Get my own car.. ?! hmmmm.....?
 I do hope i get the chance to do everything within this year. If I don't, i have to achieve most of it at least. I know I can't do everything but will certainly be hopeful to do something. Being optimistic here... Cross my fingers and pray that it will all be in God's hands and bless all of it. :)