NC13: Goals

I heard it incorrectly.  I thought I heard Gold... lol! Well, they sound similar. You could really get mixed up with the words.

Goals are set to give you direction. You need to have something to look forward to. Otherwise, you'll just wander around, working at something you don't like and not really lived your life to the fullest.

I try to make my goals as realistic and as achievable as possible (see here). Unfortunately for me, although I made them simple, I haven't attained most of it yet. :P

NC12: What you believe

I've written this down a year ago.. about my faith. This is what I believe in and will stick on it. Everyone has believed in something. It may not be God but everyone recognizes there is a higher being, far greater than us.

Whatever it is, I respect it... so I hope you respect mine.

Here is what I wrote:

NC11: Favorite TV shows

I'm a couch potato. Never let me sit in front of a TV. I will ignore everything else around me except the one I am watching.

I spend more time watching TV than reading. So whenever I get a chance, I'll read. But only for a few minutes, then back to TV again... Not much of an activity. huh?!

So, writing down my favorite TV shows, I don't know where to start. It's just too many. I'll just write down what's on top of my head or if I remember some more, then, I'll write it down again.

NC10: Something You're Afraid of (fear)

I don't have something. I have plenty of things to be scared of. Fear is normal. Fear is also constant. I can't overcome something I am not afraid of. That would just be silly.

Here are list of my rational and irrational fears:

1.  Fear of unknown. The best and most common fear. I admit, I have failed to try several things because of this fear. Questions like "what would I expect there?", "what happens if...?", etc. are just excuses. We can't overcome this fear if we don't try.

2.  Fear of becoming poor. I am not rich, nor are my parents. So I don't expect any inheritance from them. We just have enough to live by and to afford necessary and often, unnecessary needs. But the thought of not having money, or not being able to afford the necessities, scares me. I don't know why. I guess, that's why I work so hard and try to live the life I wanted.

3.  Fear of death. Death is inevitable. We will all die eventually. But the thought of dying right now, where I am unaccomplished, unsatisfied and discontent with my life, scares me. Makes me feel inadequate. That I don't have much time.

4.  Fear of rejection.  I don't want to feel unwanted and rejected.

5.  Fear of losing my faith.  Sometimes I feel that I have neglected my faith and that I have taken God for granted. Knowing that God is constant and that He will be faithful to me is my strength. Unfortunately, there are times when I feel that I don't feel God, that I don't need Him and I have taken Him aside. It scares me to come to a point when I lose my faith completely and I will never know who I am anymore.


There are even more fears that I haven't had the chance to write. I have never explored more of my weaknesses. I admit that these fears are what holds me back. I am scared to take risks that could be both fulfilling and uplifting. Maybe if I let go, I would have the life that I have wanted and the life God has planned for me.

NC9: A picture of your friends

This is going to be tricky. For one, I try as much as possible not to post pictures of my friends without their permission.  Two, I don't want anyone to feel left out.

I've got lots of friends and few close ones.  I cherish every relationship I have. And although, I don't see them that often, they know that they're still my friend and I think about them.

So although, I would like to share with you. I decided not to post any of their picture. I know, it's lame.  What an excuse... I am kind of hesitant putting a picture of myself, let alone my friends.

We've got few bumps on the road together and yet, here we are.. we're still FRIENDS.

I love that I get to see them. Talk to them, share with them, worship the Lord with them and just simply being with them.

I guess I'll just keep this private... (LAME).